60lbs Between Woman and Me

After Tw: fatphobia, transphobia, suicide, and fascist violence.

I love Yasmin El Yassini’s modeling work, how she centers her stomach and curves gives way to a world in which fat women are elegant, ethereal and engendered with reverence of their femininity

“The only treatment to diabetes and fatty liver disease is losing 20% body mass,”

the endocrinologist deems me unfit to continue taking estradiol.

I was 320lbs

and now I’m 305

off of the back of Zepbound and a Norovirus infection.

The side effects of weight loss medication are the point,

the nausea and vertigo

are the point.

There is no magic shitting my adipose out my ass with a miracle drug.

It is eating disorder in a vial,

plain and simple.

It is the embodiment of ridding the world of women

in all its quotidian increments.